Decisions

Making decisions is what I do for a living.  Making decisions for everyone else, that is.  However, now that I am faced with a decision that will impact the rest of my entire life, I feel totally immobilized.  The fear that it is the wrong decision and one that I will regret keeps rewinding the “what if” loop in my head.  It is almost amusing that I am so well-equipped to make multiple decisions daily that come from my gut and are hardly ever second-guessed, and here I sit at a crossroads waiting to hear God’s voice and He remains silent.  What I know to do is absolutely nothing until I am sure, and this is such a difficult and unfamiliar thing for me to do.  I am NOT suited to doing nothing.  I am a doer.  I get things done.  I make things happen.  But for now, I need to become patient.  I need to just be.  And wait.  Breathing in the quiet and turning indecision into peaceful being.  This is certainly out of my comfort zone, but the stakes are pretty high.  I will be resting in the promise that truth and a worthy and right decision will happen, just not in my timing, but His.