Making decisions is what I do for a living. Making decisions for everyone else,
that is. However, now that I am
faced with a decision that will impact the rest of my entire life, I feel
totally immobilized. The fear that
it is the wrong decision and one that I will regret keeps rewinding the “what
if” loop in my head. It is almost
amusing that I am so well-equipped to make multiple decisions daily that come
from my gut and are hardly ever second-guessed, and here I sit at a crossroads
waiting to hear God’s voice and He remains silent. What I know to do is absolutely nothing until I am sure, and
this is such a difficult and unfamiliar thing for me to do. I am NOT suited to doing nothing. I am a doer. I get things done.
I make things happen. But for
now, I need to become patient. I
need to just be. And wait. Breathing in the quiet and turning
indecision into peaceful being.
This is certainly out of my comfort zone, but the stakes are pretty
high. I will be resting in the
promise that truth and a worthy and right decision will happen, just not in my
timing, but His.
