Two out of the ordinary things happened yesterday. One was
an amazing, exciting blessing. The other was a very hard pill to swallow. While
reveling in the amazing, wonderful thing, it was easy to not think about the
other. Yet, all night long, my unresolved emotions around the other kept waking
me up, reminding me of my imperfections and my less-thans.
This morning, I resolved to not allow the difficult thing to
overshadow the blessings of the joyous. It is hard, but I have come to realize
that as I put my focus on Papa, it becomes much easier.
The biggest effort for me is to allow the joy even though
there is this huge hurdle that I still will need to navigate.
It made me ponder my reactions when these two things
happened so close together. I received both pieces of news literally in minutes
of one another. Yet, for the first time in my life, I did not jump on the
emotional roller-coaster. I feel like I have finally matured a bit in this
arena, and that is a very good thing.
Two huge things with two opposite effects. Yet, here I stand—whole
and centered in the love of the Father. And I am at peace.
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